I apologise for not updating for such a long time...Thanks all for tagging and keeping my stagnent half-dead blog alive =P...anw, this happens to be my first post in 2007...hahas...

The first 2 and a half weeks of sec3 have finally passed...and after this two and a half weeks...I came to the conclusion that Sec3 Life is really really exhausting...having abt 6 hours of lessons per day and taking 8 subjects turned out to be tougher than i thought...

Unfortunately for me, i'm still in the holiday mood...during sec2 even though i slacked frequently,i was still lucky enough to get good results as i pia-ed extremely hard during the exams...and it was tough for me...having only bout 2 hours of sleep the night before the exams due to last minute studying...and forcing my brain to absorb all the info i was reading...it was a feeling of extreme fatigue and ben kui-ness (it doesn't have to be a word as long as u get wad i mean...lolx), wanting to just stop and rest and yet not having any time to....anw, the point is...thus aft streaming i told myself not to slack anymore during sec3 as i really didn't want to experience that desperate feeling again and wanted to "enjoy studying" (2 words quoted from my dad and also something i've been trying to do for more than half of my life but haven't succeeded and probably never will)...But sometimes, i really feel a sense of guilt, and i start to question myself, coz i kinda feel that i don't deserve the results i get...i'm a lucky person i guess....

Seriously, i feel that i'm getting more slack than sec2 now...only 2 and a half weeks have passed...and i did not do homework, slept during class, and didn't pass up assignments as i didn't do them...then again, i feel guilty coz i'm not progressing but going backwards instead...it's not a matter of being kiasu, the point is, i'm concerned about not being able to cope keep up wif my work...no matter how much i tell myself to stop slacking...i still find myself switching on the com. and surfing the net even though i have a huge pile of homework undone...like i told myself today to complete my homework but ended up playing com the whole day...the thing is, i feel really tired aft reaching home every evening...aft studying in sch for like so long, i really dun feel like starting on my work or studying again...somemore, it's really hard to concentrate in class when you've only had 5 hours of sleep the previous night...

I'm not trying to make excuses...but i feel really guilty whenever i tell ppl i'm unable to cope...bcoz it's like i am actually able to complete my homework if i set my mind to it...but i end up wasting my time by slacking instead...and everytime i excuse myself from slacking that day and tell myself to put the next day to better use...i end up slacking again...and time just seems to pass so quickly whenever i need it...anw, i've once again realised how precious sleep is...omg...sleeping rawks!...hahas

Anw, Very sorry for having such a lousy and boring post as my first post of the year....i really intended to blog bout nicer stuff but ended up talking boring crap instead coz i'm kinda confused bout what i'm actualy feeling and typing now...i know it's an extremely super boring post coz i feel so too...really sorry....but anw, i'll continue blogging tmr(hopefully) bout the intial things i wanted to blog abt...coz it's 2.42am now and i wanna sleep...